tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28638835208157233012024-03-13T14:03:28.000-04:00my Beautiful Thought blogA virtual and real place of God's peace, love, and hope. May these words encourage and empower you. May this blog cause you to slow down and reflect, if just for a few minutes, in this fast world. May it be medicine to your soul and bandages on your wounds that speed your healing. ~Beautiful Thought
(Please Subscribe by providing your email.)Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-14944771128897444972018-03-12T11:37:00.000-04:002018-03-12T11:37:36.015-04:00Reason #100,001 why I homeschool<div dir="ltr">
I was at one of the suburban middle school. It looks nice and orderly, resources look ample. Kids were quiet during the fire drill. That was all good until later during a class change.</div>
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I heard commotion while standing inside the library doors. Some students ran past, so I stepped into the hallway. I heard a girl crying... saw a fairly tall girl looming over in an aggressive stance... then I saw a girl on the ground. There were no teachers around. In that long 20 seconds I had to determine my reaction. </div>
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Would I go toward them? NOPE, not taking that chance! It was too many kids to walk through. Plus, I wasn't chancing getting hurt by flying arms. I decided I would yell, "Get to class!", to clear out some of the students. As I was about to open my mouth a teacher showed up to escort the aggressor. "Saved by the bell." (pun intended)</div>
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[Ironically, the professional I went to meet at the school expressed she would like to consider homeschooling her 2 & 5 yr old.]</div>
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<span style="background-color: #d8dfea;">#Ineedtowriteablog</span></div>
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God's love & peace to you<br />
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-29803797976750523772018-02-27T20:00:00.001-05:002018-02-27T20:00:22.977-05:00Today my homeschool coop poetry class was reminded of Black History & Women's Histpry month. They were instructed to choose an AA woman poet and pick one of her quotes. Next they were to write a poem that spoke about what the quote meant to them. I gave choices: Maya Angelou, Phyllis Wheatley, Nikki Giovanni, Toni Morrison, and Sonia Sanchez.<br />
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I later mentioned that if they know a poet in real life they can choose someone else. So the youngest girl chose me, "Beautiful Thought". She proudly told another girl, "I chose her," with a smile. I'm sure I felt as honored as she felt proud.<br />
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This is the same student who made various head wraps for her Barbie dolls that look like her brother's friend's mom (me). The same student who discontinued her other class this semester so she could join my poetry group. The same student who has experienced more diversity in her home than many people will just be in the same room with in a whole lifetime.<br />
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She will be one of the pioneers in racial reconciliation. She is so pure. I sent her to natashabeautifulthought.blogspot.com to find a quote. I gave her some suggestions , but she chose something else instead. She pulled out words that didn't jump out to me, but actually describe my whole ministry, especially to women. I can't wait to read her poem next week.<br />
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"Since I discovered me, I now am able to help others do the same." ~ Beautiful Thought<br />
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God's love & peace to you<br />
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-12142560110993044792018-02-27T13:27:00.002-05:002018-02-27T13:27:17.026-05:00It's Time To Break The Cycle<div style="text-align: center;">
Being a "helicopter parent" is the same as micro managing a spouse or employee. In children, it causes learned helplessness; in personal relationships it causes decreased self-esteem and a break in trust. We don't trust others, and we don't trust God, enough to give up some control. Ultimately, it really is about one's own insecurities and has nothing at all to do with the other person. Usually, that same person then criticizes the child for acting helpless or the spouse/</div>
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employee for not being proactive and/or assertive. It is a cycle that is quite dysfunctional and becomes embedded in the psyche of our children... </div>
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they never feel "good enough" and often need extra validation. This validation sometimes comes in negative forms too.</div>
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BREAK the cycle, </div>
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no matter what side of the circle you're on.</div>
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God's love & peace to you</div>
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~Beautiful Thought</div>
Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-79451210961431601472017-08-19T14:06:00.000-04:002017-08-19T14:12:53.893-04:00The problem with getting married...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The problem with getting married is that self-centered people, who haven't learned to love themselves, or God, do it. For goodness sakes, the problem is not the institution, it's the individuals. No person who is still holding onto childhood fears, they are not willing to admit, or can not anticipate the needs of someone else should get married. It doesn't mean one will one day be a mind reader, or should be, it means they can see outside themselves and have the capacity to strive to please another person. Never tie up with someone who is not available....to love you....then get mad when they don't. I've never been married but God has been giving me bits of revelation.<br />
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We are often so consumed with how we've allowed someone to make us feel we forget that power actually is internal. When we can begin to understand this and take responsibility for how we feel in any situation and how we choose to act, we can begin to stop being so defensive in our communication with others. When we do this we can begin to be responsible for our own happiness and carry that joy into a relationship. We can begin to focus on pleasing others instead of trying to be self-serving. We will begin to join together as adults seeking to please God in every area and it won't be just a cliché statement. We will begin to seek to understand just as much as we want to be understood.<br />
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We will realize that marriage is not a fixed something you arrive at but, moreso a daily act of showing up every day to put in the work of loving unconditionally. You see progress, but you never arrive, because it's always a working process. I'm learning.<br />
(Facebook post 8/2015)<br />
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God's love & peace to you<br />
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I had a chance to focus on God better through nature by getting some fresh air and going into our community garden. I saw my garden bed had not been watered. I thought people who volunteered did that part. There was a woman there watering her own. She told me to schedule maintenance to keep it the healthiest. <br />
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I watered, pulled off a few dead leaves, and pulled up the 2 small weeds I saw. I looked at other garden beds and saw one that was yellow and over run with weeds. I saw another that looked almost perfect, no weeds, but not much was growing either. I don't know why there was so much wasted space; it could be growing more things. I watered some of the other people's gardens that I could reach but the weeds were still there.<br />
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This reminded me of life and people. When you take care of what God gave you He will bless it. We must use what He gives us to produce much "fruit" and be good stewards. When you don't provide the proper maintenance of your spirit, or even gifts, they get overtaken by "weeds". When you strive for better and to be a good stewart He'll even send people to help you. However, no one is ultimately responsible for it but you.<br />
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I gave the lady & her friend a ride home around the corner. It was hot and they were appreciative. She said, "Whenever I come back I'm going to water your garden if it needs it."<br />
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Take from it whatever is for you. I'm pulling weeds from my spirit today and watering it this weekend. I pray we all get the lessons.<br />
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God's love & peace to you<br />
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Summer 2016Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-57208071263302069282016-09-14T00:27:00.000-04:002017-03-12T15:22:05.619-04:00She Doesn't Have Arms!Today was hard on my body, a long day due to my son's homeschooling schedule. I taught my other poetry class too. This morning getting dressed I noticed my tank top revealed one of my sores that are healing left from tests on my heart. I was going to throw on a lite scarf but decided on a chunky necklace instead. Later in the day I realized it didn't stay covering the sore. My son even noticed it. I kept shifting the necklace up hoping it couldn't be seen.<br />
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This 1st day of poetry class I had kids write affirmations. One wrote about learning from mistakes, two others were also pretty deep. I wrote about being positive even when I feel sad or in pain. But one student, simply wanted to just do well in school. THAT was actually the most profound, as I think back because...she has No arms.<br />
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I'm inspired. I'm hiding my little bitty flaw on my skin and thinking about my pain. Her imperfections can not be hidden and she was not worried. She is living carefree and joyfilled without regard. If she can....that's the least I can do. I'm determined to grin and bare it. If you see me smiling, it's not because I'm not in pain, it's because I resolve to be a light in and out of season.<br />
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After the first day of my other poetry class I thought they need me but, I need them just as much. I'm blessed. #poetry #God<br />
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God's love & peace to you<br />
~ Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-64829019892771234852016-07-07T15:35:00.003-04:002016-07-07T15:35:59.486-04:00DON'T Shoot!My son doesn't have a FB page<br />
We don't watch the news either<br />
Reality is at times too dark<br />
But we need to face it<br />
So I need to have a conversation<br />
In all reality<br />
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Don't ride dirty<br />
Don't have expired tags<br />
Don't ride with a tail light out<br />
Don't talk back<br />
Don't disobey<br />
Don't make sudden moves<br />
Don't legally bear arms<br />
Don't carry toys<br />
Don't carry a cell phone<br />
Don't play<br />
Don't laugh<br />
Don't yell<br />
Don't sell cds<br />
Don't hold cigarettes<br />
Don't reach for your license<br />
Don't put your hands in pockets<br />
Don't go to the corner store<br />
Don't carry a pop & chips<br />
Don't go to the playground<br />
Don't live in the suburbs<br />
Don't grow taller or bigger<br />
Don't stay a black boy<br />
Don't become a black man<br />
Don't make a move<br />
Don't go outside<br />
Don't breath<br />
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I can't breath<br />
don't shoot<br />
Don't Shoot!<br />
DON'T SHOOT!!!<br />
Our privilege is<br />
In our reality<br />
We are already extinct.<br />
© 7.7.16 Natasha "Beautiful Thought" Anée, All Rights Reserved.<br />
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Black Lives Matter Too.<br />
God's love & peace to you
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-34659550780446878012016-01-12T16:30:00.001-05:002016-01-12T16:30:21.522-05:00Joseph Had Haters TooI was just reminded of Potiphar's wife who was a real "ole school hater". In spite, she set Joseph up for imprisonment, potentially even death. Joseph had to endure great trials by way of living in prison after being falsely accused. BUT GOD!!!! He found favor among men even in prison and later with the king Pharaoh, not to mention, he could have been killed instead of just imprisoned!<br />
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God doesn't choose to directly control people and there are evil, selfish people out here. So in the process of us dealing with those people filled with assignments from satan...He extends his grace and favor to us throughout our journeys. He allowed Joseph's anointing to eventually be what helped him get released from prison. Now what if he had wilded out for being done wrong, what if he did not wait on God to deliver him?? Oh you better believe the outcome would be different!<br />
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Joseph also forgave even his brothers who betrayed him. "As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive." God IS intentional!<br />
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We all have choices to make and many of us respond differently to similar circumstances. HOWEVER, God is a consistent variable and His promises remain true no matter how long we are in the "belly of a great fish", the "lion's den", the "fiery furnace", or "imprisoned" unjustly. God IS a present help and a deliverer, as He was for our ancestors, He also is for us.<br />
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God's love & peace to you
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-31011806049420394542016-01-03T22:47:00.002-05:002016-01-03T22:47:06.682-05:00Ladies love yourselves firstLadies love yourself so much that you are willing to see truth for what it is. Never settle for halves, half truths, second best, not enough, seconds or anything else less then you deserve. The only thing that happens when you're in denial is missing out on God's perfect will and timing. Our instincts are much stronger then we give yourselves credit but we operate in denial of what we sense to be true. Sometimes you have to do what's hard now to avoid doing something more difficult later. To yourself first be true. God has His will set in motion but it's only by our actions of faith will they manifest. If you are Queen stay on your level and never tolerate being mistreated or being treated less then you are....all the rest in between is God's job. Ladies know your place...it's a place of virtuousity and raw truth and who doesn't want to live free. If you're trapped in a relationship, or even trapped in your own mind, ask yourself why and what lies are you believing. Then remind yourself what you again need to trust and believe God for. Selah... 1/3/2015<br />
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God's love & peace to you
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-32147678061037079592016-01-03T21:19:00.001-05:002016-01-03T22:27:33.862-05:00Looking back to late 2012: It all makes sense<div style="background-color: white; font-family: Roboto, 'Droid Sans', Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; margin-bottom: 6px; padding: 0px;">
I'm just really in awe of what God is doing. I'm not sure why I would be. Every single time, all (count them) three times, I lost my job it was the best thing that ever happened to me.</div>
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The very first time I ended up working at my babies daycare for way less money but also the privilege of being with him daily. I also went back to school and got my Master's degree. Then the second time, I rediscovered poetry and shortly after fell in love with spoken word. The third time, the charm, has been the longest I have ever been without a job since I entered the work force. It has been the hardest set of ordeals and trials I've had to face ever. However, it has in return allowed me to stay home with my son again. It has reaped the greatest level of faith I've ever had. I have been tried financially, mentally, spiritually and physically. I'm stronger then I've ever been spiritually. When all is said and done it will eventually be the biggest payoff financially.</div>
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In hindsight, I know how true this quote is by <a href="https://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1528431370&refid=52&ref=m_notif&notif_t=fbpage_fan_invite&_ft_=top_level_post_id.10205414632902781%3Atl_objid.10205414632902781&__tn__=%2As" style="color: #576b95; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">Paul Dean</a>, "God is standing at the end of your process." I beg you not to give up! No matter what! So what you can't see the plan, what you see is still.not the end...It's the process. Hold on my friends. Lean against the rope, catch your breath and get ready to fight til God brings you a chair and says take out your mouthpiece. He's rooting for you, He's cheering for you, He will fight your battle for you but you have to fight til all your fight is gone. God has a plan. Trust God, honor Him above all things and say...<br />
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~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-61996881801095835482016-01-03T21:14:00.004-05:002016-01-03T22:27:51.783-05:00Promises, promises 2014Promised, Promises...<br />
I've learned something in 2014, it's a lesson to release people from your spirit. Here it is:: People often speak before they have thought things through. People, even with good hearts, will state things outloud and never deliver. We don't realize that every word spoken is a promise. We make promises at times without thinking through what effort or sacrifice it will take to deliver. YES, we're human nothing is 100%. The problem is when we change our minds or realize it will take more effort then we realized we say nothing to that other person. Children remember, but so do adults. So in 2015 realize and you remember that when you state something you need to think through what it means before you speak it.<br />
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Are you willing to make that sacrifice, have you looked at your resources lately, have you counted the cost (financially), are you truly committed, can you get past your laziness, are you responding out of emotion? Think before you speak in every situation. If you're not sure say that...if it's a possibility say that...if you'll consider it say that...if you're trying but know it will be too difficult don't say it to appease...if it is contingent on something else then wait for that part to manifest.<br />
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In every way count up the cost of what you speak. I have learned that people are fickle and not to hold grudges. If it's a gift forget it and if it's to help in your time of need let them know your disappointment. Yet either way forgive. In the same token, know more times then not someone is going to hold you to your words too. Take it seriously, after all it's your integrity at stake. 1/3/2015<br />
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God's love & peace to you
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-13663092826956608342015-12-31T15:38:00.000-05:002016-01-02T10:42:48.207-05:00Who's rib are you anyway?I haven't posted on my blog in a long time but that's changing now. My voice needs to be heard more but I don't need more of social media. I need more of God!<br />
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"If a man is not willing to<br />
dig deeper, forge new tunnels, take the chance of having to turn around and find a different way...if a man is not willing to climb to "the rock" for you on hand & knees, shelter you with prayer during "avalanches", offer you "living" water, trek miles alongside you in the shadow of the son...Then he should never even seek permission to begin the sacred journey. Guard your heart with more then just your ribs, until you recognize who's missing rib you are."<br />
© 12.29.15 Natasha Beautiful Thought Anée, All Rights Reserved.<br />
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God's love, grace & peace to you<br />
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-77849067294763675242014-03-23T09:21:00.001-04:002014-03-23T09:24:02.501-04:00Cancel the Noise<p>It's the simplest revelations sometimes... It hit me that I have spiritual earplugs and earphones. I have been irritated, frustrated, even hurt at times listening to negativity and people who can't see how pessimistic they are. So instead of reacting I will begin to use my spiritual ear plugs. </p>
<p>Only what God says about me is truth, everything else is subjective and relative to them. I don't have to make other people's opinions & perceptions my problem, no matter who they are. I can smile knowing that doesn't mean I agree. I can be quiet and I'll also hear God's spirit whispering truths in my ear. </p>
<p>#Noise cancelling earphones<br>
#Block out the negativity </p>
<p>Let God's truths fill you with positive thoughts of who you are and where He is leading you. You are not perfect but through God's love, grace, and mercy you'll be all He designed you to be. Don't let anyone lead you to believe differently. God's peace and love to you. ~ Beautiful Thought<br>
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Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-71909812769412556582014-01-05T12:10:00.001-05:002014-01-05T12:10:24.730-05:00I Want To Be Better<u><br /></u>
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God's love & peace to you
~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-81560766250512781092014-01-02T02:48:00.001-05:002014-01-02T02:48:39.477-05:00My Non Resolution: 2014<p>Sitting in my new comfy pjs, heat pack on my back with only the light from my fireplace and colorful icicle lights I reflect on time spent with family today. I Surrender by Anthony Evans is what I hear fill the room... No resolutions, I try to do what I say. This here is a spiritual enhancement. </p>
<p>I will without apology or fear do what God purposes in my spirit for me to say. I will not let money, power, position deter me or cause me to doubt again. I doubted on New Years eve that I should speak the words as were placed in my heart but I went fort and the response ended up being more then I expected. It just reconfirmed what I already knew. God has given me a voice and He continues to give me platforms...I will be obedient in that always. </p>
<p>This has probably been the hardest year of my life but yet I feel so blessed. Friends are taking a different role in my life as I move closer to God He continues to reveal how I can only rely on Him. I pray you All learn that my friends...you will find it more difficult for your feelings to be hurt. Yes the five closest people in your circle do say a lot about you. Sometimes though you need to stop trying to reach out to people who don't want to be reached and reach towards those you may have neglected in the process. That could even include folks from your own family. Trust that God knows who should be there for a reason, season, and lifetime. I will. </p>
<p>I see God all around me right now...I resolve to keep it that way. With uncertainty for even tomorrow I vow to trust Him. This is my non resolution for 2014 & beyond. Be Encouraged. God's love and peace to you. ~ Beautiful Thought<br>
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Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-14688234301258794752013-11-14T19:17:00.001-05:002013-11-14T19:17:37.617-05:00Beautiful Thought: poet emcee for the 2013 HeadWrapExpo.com<a href="http://animoto.com/play/t5S9cckSxp1Gmd6nqgb0NQ">Your Fashion emcee for the 2013 HeadWrapExpo.com</a><br />
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www.mybeautifulthoughts.comBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-8022484454324914732013-11-03T06:51:00.001-05:002013-11-03T07:38:53.253-05:00Lord Why: Have you forsaken us?<p>I proclaimed that I was going to <i>Live</i> and be <i>Authentic</i>. So here goes that. I <b>never</b>, I say <b>never</b>, imagined there would come a time I would lie in bed in so much pain that I couldn't sleep. I had to sit up, but yet and still all I can do now is breath heavy and cry as tears come down my face. I pray God takes some of this from me. I can never judge another because who am I to judge. I been through and am going through too much. </p>
<p>Lord please bless every person waking during the night to darkness and complete silence except their heavy breathing and tears falling. Bless every person in pain of any kind. WoW!!! It just just hit me how could <i>Jesus</i> have felt on the cross!?? I got some relief by sitting up, but He couldn't move. He was in so much pain He cried out, "My God, My God why has thou forsaken me?" I feel That pain, but yet I know God has Not left and every situation could be much worse. For that I will still praise Him through it.</p>
<p>I pray now that the devil will not trick anyone to believing God has turned His back; That no person will ever give up hope or turn to street drugs or abuse prescriptions. Let everyone enduring any pain find moments of relief, whether it's their fault or not let that be of no consequence. May remembering the love of God and loved ones help comfort us, even in the midnight hour. May remedies work...questions be answered...help arrive...the ability to endure be made manifest through perseverance...faith never be wavering...pain increasingly decrease...tolerance be increased...may God heal us all swiftly through His everlasting mercy and unmerited favor. In faith say <b>AMEN</b>!</p>
<p><i>Protect your circle.</i> Spend time around those who will encourage, uplift, and keep you in prayer. Let people love on you. If you need help ask for it. If you're discouraged say it. LIVE....life authentic so that you can be free mentally and emotionally. <i>You Can</i> be free. God's love & peace to you. ~ Beautiful Thought<br>
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Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-84268919849735693632013-10-28T01:14:00.001-04:002013-10-28T01:18:20.754-04:00Forgive Yourself<b><span style="background-color: orange;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">I'm thankful for this inspiration - it's one to grow on... </span><br style="line-height: 17.99715805053711px;" /><span style="line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">Has anyone ever told you that lack of forgiveness can be crippling? But yet they failed to add that not forgiving yourself also can have the same effect. If others and even God can forgive you why can't you forgive yourself? To be able to forgive yourself you must understand the concept of agape love and how God is willing to forgive us. W</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">e must ask for it....but have you ever had a talk with you and asked yourself the same? "Self" please forgive me for not treating you right, letting others hurt you, damaging your reputation, not maintaining integrity, settling for less then you are worth, not meeting up to your level of capability, making the same mistakes, letting loved ones down, taking so long to break old habits...etc. Tell your self that you are sorry. Isn't it time to GROW and be whole again> set yourself free....only YOU hold the key. To thine own self be true...maintain your principles, but start WITHIN you</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">.</span></span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;"> </span></span></b><b><span style="background-color: orange;">God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought</span></b><br />
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~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-24624691112967173942013-10-09T22:07:00.001-04:002013-10-09T22:07:03.958-04:00Cultiv8Create: Daily bread: Mangled ministry"Very Early in the morning while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. Simon and..."<br />
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~Beautiful ThoughtBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-89204297149089509122013-09-11T21:11:00.001-04:002013-09-11T21:11:55.000-04:00The Peaceful Poetic Place Online Radio | BlogTalkRadio<a href="http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thepeacefulpoeticplace#.UjER2J78yBI.blogger">The Peaceful Poetic Place Online Radio | BlogTalkRadio</a><br />
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www.mybeautifulthoughts.comBeautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-33272325976241390342013-09-11T16:47:00.000-04:002013-09-11T16:50:13.860-04:00Suicide Awareness: Listen<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Times; mso-ansi-language: EN;">In honor of September being Suicide Awareness Prevention month, I have reposted My Testimony which is a poetic take of my survival story. I will be hosting a blog talk which I will recite it, listen to other poetry & stories, and share information. Sunday - 9:30 pm. Click this link now to set up your reminder to tune in and/or call in : </span><a href="http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thepeacefulpoeticplace">http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thepeacefulpoeticplace</a></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Times; mso-ansi-language: EN;">(The show will be recorded and archived so it will also be available to listen later.)</span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Times; mso-ansi-language: EN;"><b>MY TESTIMONY</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Times;"><i>*Excerpts of my life from 1992 and 1995. I was asked to
submit my testimony for a book about women who God has helped them overcome
greatly. I simply told others to do it because I felt I had no powerful
testimony...I now realize through this poem that my LIFE is a testimony.*</i></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Thank you for not killing me...<br />
When I myself wanted to die, anyway<br />
Well maybe not, pass from this life<br />
But become dead to the pain I felt<br />
When you both told me we, our relationship was dead, over<br />
See two times I allowed it to kill me, my spirit<br />
I gave each of you men enough power to end my own, life<br />
I know you never much wanted or expected<br />
Me to take it as I did <br />
But when your world ends <br />
It takes your life with it<br />
You each said goodbye as you thought of me<br />
Cheating with that other guy <br />
Was I wrong, that's not even the issue<br />
I didn't realize the impact of what I did, or didn't do<br />
Didn't think or know I needed so much, tissue<br />
I reached out for something to comfort me <br />
because of your guys rejection of me <br />
you weren't there<br />
Now who would comfort me <br />
No one, not even me<br />
See I couldn't see…<br />
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The first time, I blindly walked around<br />
As in a drunken stupor down the streets of Illinois below "the hill" <br />
Down a street I was unfamiliar with<br />
Not wanting to run into you, your sister, or mine<br />
Wanting, wanting, but not wanting, anyone to know<br />
Many still don't, know<br />
That I had taken several drinks of my nieces medicine, none of which was
required<br />
But needed at the time<br />
I didn't want to feel the pain<br />
Wanted time to stand still<br />
Although I would have preferred to go back, in time<br />
In time I would have thrown that erotic letter away<br />
Given to me by a co-worker that I just threw in my purse<br />
You found it <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Accused me<br />
and now pain found me<br />
If only that medicine I took could have been for pain, not allergies<br />
Maybe I wouldn't feel what I was feeling<br />
Tears wouldn't stop <br />
my clothes had they been rags <br />
I would have blended into the streets of the ghetto<br />
Strangers wouldn't have stared at me as if something was wrong with me<br />
Walking down the streets crying, doped up, dead, inside<br />
I wanted to die ust for a while <br />
I was mad, that the medicine wasn't strong enough<br />
That there was nothing else I could take<br />
That there was no alcohol to wash it down<br />
So instead with all these feeling in my head<br />
I walked back to the house <br />
Now alseep, I slept, the medicine off<br />
There lies the end of that relationship, end of story<br />
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But its not the end of the story<br />
About three years later now in Michigan, history, her-story, repeats itself<br />
Yes this time I was wrong I cheated<br />
Don't ask me how I could<br />
Don't judge me, look at where you're standing, as you look at me<br />
Just because I was sorry for doing something, so sorry<br />
Doesn't mean it hurt any less<br />
Doesn't me I didn't want to be forgiven and try to do my best<br />
He was the best, thing that happened to me<br />
So on crutches, in the midst of college finals, a broken ankle, and a broken
heart<br />
I had enough of the pain<br />
Again the tears wouldn't stop<br />
And I wanted to die inside<br />
maybe even have my heart stop long enough for it to repair itself<br />
Just long enough for all the pain to go, away<br />
the pain that was drowning me, paralyzing, killing me <br />
I could think of nothing else<br />
I was consumed </span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Just as the effects of the hydrocodone and motrin
overtook my natural senses<br />
So too was the drug induced effects of being without your love<br />
I felt as if I was dying, I had enough<br />
Pills to maybe do the job this time<br />
Because ironically, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">I refused take the hydrocodone after my ankle surgery<br />
I didn't like the way it made me feel<br />
And now I was beginning to feel, nothing<br />
You would think it was bittersweet relief</span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">I again called out for someone to comfort me<br />
I hopped to the payphone and called my mother in <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:state w:st="on">Illinois</st1:state></st1:place><br />
There was no comfort she could give me <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">Through wires and plastic<br />
I'm sure instantly she knew something was wrong<br />
I can't recall all the exact details but<br />
I think she made me give her the number of my girl friend<br />
At some point they took me to the hospital<br />
You know, where you go for healing<br />
I had to drink some nasty charcoal, I was gonna be fine<br />
But I also had to spend the night for observation<br />
Of my mental, not physical<br />
I didn't want to talk to some stranger <br />
How could she help me<br />
After all, we still wouldn't be together <br />
I got over it though, I soon realized this simple truth<br />
no life is worth losing your life<br />
Jesus laid down His life <br />
He died for you and me<br />
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I know now I wasn't ready to die for we<br />
That's the way God designed it to be <br />
Thank you Lord for the gift you gave me <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">And for not taking it back, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">When I wanted to return it<br />
I no longer want to die, not physically<br />
Even when no person is there to comfort me<br />
I have learned that your hand was always there reaching out to hold mine<br />
Thank you Lord for not killing me <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; mso-ansi-language: EN;">But being there for me<br />You have always been there to comfort me<br />
I was just looking </span></div>
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Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-72304686088080690142013-08-28T00:53:00.000-04:002013-08-28T00:53:03.749-04:00Stinking Thinking: Survival of The Fittest<span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">Those of you whom have been hurt a lot or deeply and have not yet fully healed be careful....If you develop a mechanism of defense from being hurt called survival your actions can be destructive and detrimental to your relationships. Once you become so consumed with survival it changes the way you love and give. It turns your mindset into one of what can I get from others...and what do I need to s</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">urvive....it becomes a self-centered type of mindset. You may even be a caring person and loving person the best you know how. It develops an alter ego or an unbalanced mind. </span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;"><br /></span>
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">You want to be free and give and love freely BUT you are so used to being hurt and can't let go of thoughts of being hurt that you in turn sabotage relationships without even knowing. You can never give 100% because unconsciously your self-preservation mode does not allow you to....you must first look out for yourself. So you might even give tangibly but emotionally and other ways you do not give fully. You are deceiving yourself and others. Others see your core and love you for it....but yet they are at times confused because you at times contradict yourself through subtle actions and others just can't figure it out. It's almost like dealing with not two different people because it's not that extreme but yet maybe like dealing with twins who are not exactly the same. Confusing huh??? Yep even for yourself.</span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;"><br />Well I encourage you if you have ever had to be in survival mode or if you have ever been hurt bad before check yourself....take inventory of where your mind, heart, and spirit is currently. Unless you surrender to it and let it go you will never be healed and you will always be fragmented into two parts. Stop reliving the past through your own choice. </span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 17.99715805053711px;">God's Peace & Love to you. ~Beautiful Thought <a href="http://www.mybeautifulthoughts.com/" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer;" target="_blank">www.mybeautifulthoughts.com</a></span>Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-44426822602083255472013-08-26T12:38:00.002-04:002013-11-03T07:32:59.701-05:00I Am Encouraged<p>It's the end of August and I am so encouraged!!!! I have a lot to say so read....or don't.... This weekend despite difficulties and having to press IT was so encouraging!!! I ministered at Soundsof Imani's Anointed Gospel Coffee House with Paul Dean and friends. He and Clarissa stuck by me to help me press and it feels like commitment and dedication and perseverance....it feels like....love. I AM Blessed! </p>
<p>Sunday I had an awesome word as always from my pastor Mark Thompson and as a bonus saw a friend in Christ and in spirit JoVonna who is always full of positive energy. That evening I did a short impromptu piece at Darnell Kendricks' Smooth Soul Cafe Maccabees about the blessings & love of music & friends perfect for such a time as the soulful one he Always creates. Stay tuned for info about the next one Sept. 28 I plan to be on the mic even more. ;-) His event lifted my spirit through the love that permeates wherever HE IS and the spirits he attracts as a result. </p>
<p>Plus I caught up with my best friend Neva which is a blessing in itself. To top it off I had an agent from Affiliate Modeling agency (who happened to be in a mtg at the restaurant about a fashion magazine he is launching) tell me excitedly that he wants to work with me as a model. </p>
<p>Finally, this morning I watched The Peaceful Poetic Place 2nd Anniversary on dvd...the room was packed & both artists and the audience was on fire!!! I heard the words both Theo & Yahminah said that night...I heard very clearly today the words that were meant for me. One of the things Theo said was that "we" The P3 would not be there long & 2 months later here we are in search of a new venue. THAT means it is time to MOVE and GROW. It is time for me to move & grow. I'm open to all GOD has for me I will not let my circumstances that are merely temporarily (I claim) stand in my way.</p>
<p>God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought<br>
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Beautiful Thoughthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09348681304101572558noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2863883520815723301.post-63326195726872484162013-08-18T22:17:00.000-04:002013-08-18T22:17:42.814-04:00Take The Limits Off<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
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I remember when I used to work with the homeless. I had a
coworker with quite a few children and her husband was often out of the home. He
was an addict that would relapse from time to time but she still held it
together. The strength of a woman…this dedicated mother would often get calls
and even have to leave work because her daughter would have seizures. I
remember her saying that her daughter would sleep in class afterwards. I remember
thinking maybe smells or chemicals in the school were triggering this young
girl to have these episodes. I realize now I labeled them “episodes” as I would
think to myself. I’m not sure why, that was just the language that formed…I
call mine spells. That is simply because I knew something was coming over me at
times. I just wasn't sure exactly what it was, but I soon realized it was more
then staring spells, being tired, or simple headaches. It was different. </div>
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I never imagined I would one day be familiar with what
seemed so uncommon. It’s only been 2 weeks since the terms were injected into
my life, through the mail as a denied medical bill, figure that. In all actuality,
I have been experiencing these experiences for over half a year now. Since they
are merely just words on paper, that same night I learned of the actual
diagnosis, I quickly shook my fear of the 29 black letters on white that really
didn't seem to fit into my life. <i>Generalized, Convulsive, Epilepsy</i> unknown to
me those labels had been applied 41/2 months prior...to my knowledge. </div>
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I realize that I am different…not sure I will ever be the
same, though even before I was labeled different. I accepted the idea of that
title like a badge of honor. Now, I am trying to be ok with this different
different. My skin is the same. My thoughts and desires are the same. My brain
has just begun to get electrical signals crossed at times. Yet I look the same.
You can not see the health of my brain…shoot I can’t either. I just experience
the overload. You may be able to look into my eyes and see my desire to travel
the world, lead souls to Christ, inspire nations, uplift our men, and empower
our women through words. You can see dreams and visions manifested to real life
but you can not see my silent limitations. You often can not see the barriers
others face either so remove the assumptions. Everyone is dealing with
something even if, it is only in their mind.</div>
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I say limitations loosely, because I claim that no title “on
my brain” will stop me from fulfilling God’s will of me or for me. I claim in
His name that all He has planned will happen fully. I will just go at a slower
pace. I claim that I am free. Even in my home with no one to drive me somewhere
I am free. I can think and I can breathe. I am free. I am free to whisper
poetry to the wind. I don’t need bright lights or man-made stages I have the
world’s stage under me. I am free. I can rest and slow down whenever I need to.
I realize now that no one told me life was meant to be a race always running from
place to place. I know who my son is. We are not strangers passing each other
in hallways during the night. We are not travelers eating in separate rooms at
the same time. We are not mother and son missing each other while together. I
am free from time now. It no longer owns me. I control it and I wait. I wait
for God to direct me and during silence I hear from Him clearly.</div>
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God’s plans are divine and every fault, every mistake, every
wrong step can and will be used for you…to bring you into submission to His
plans and acknowledge <b>HE IS GOD</b>. To breathe that truth daily gives me the
courage to relax (not try to fight my own battles) and focus on wellness. The
world needs each piece of me, yet I am not to be reduced to my parts. I am
whole, the sum of these parts. Even if it comes in segments or sections I
declare that I am still whole. I must get that before I can give “it” to you. </div>
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Let’s <b>ALL</b> <i>slow down</i>. Let’s remember the world will always be
spinning. If we want to appreciate the beauty we have to be still to see it.
Let’s not judge others based on what you think you see. Let’s not put people in
a box and call them ours. We are not toys on a shelf with directions. We each
bring something unique. Let’s liberate the nations and allow them to operate
within their limitations. Let’s free them to be who they are, not the figment
of your perception. You do not know what internal limitations people are
dealing with. You do not fully know the journey they have been on, nor do you
know where they are going. Let’s give them freedom to move about as they wish
at the pace they believe necessary. We will instead encourage, inspire, uplift,
empower everyone to move forward No Matter What is going on internally in their
mind or body. Yet know that all you can do is that. You can not force others to
go the route you paved or lead…that in itself is limiting. Until you can get
inside someone’s head you will never understand many of the choices that others
make…and that…is alright. You are ok and they are ok and that is ok. Just
continue to believe God for His promises in not just your life, but others as
well. Relax and Release. Pray for me as I pray for you too…<b>Be Free</b>. </div>
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God’s LOVE &
PEACE to you. 8.18.13 ~Beautiful Thought </div>
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