Sunday, January 5, 2014
I Want To Be Better
I want to be better... I have some things I want to give up or change and my spirit says the time is now.
I am starting a twelve step program called www.theorangerhino.com I will take it 30 days at a time and celebrate my "better" even if I fall off. I will allow my child and even you to hold me accountable.
I want to "check out" because I have checked out too many times. I want to unplug technology and spend more time with the natural, most importantly God & my child. I will manage my time more effectively. So I again declare that weekdays from 3-9 pm are family time with only rare distractions. My hands have been busy to many times when they should have been free....to teach, to comfort, to hug, to not be distracted, to pray, to love.
I will slowly begin to call people more...something I honestly avoid quite a bit for some reason. I will quit wondering what people thing and just find out for myself. I will not take it personally when friends do not connect with me. I believe God has a plan and if that means people I am comfortable with are not part of the long run then I must be O.k. with it, as much as it might hurt. Since I do not drive this season requires friends, or those who want to be, make an extra effort to see me. I must realize that everyone has their own priorities which may or may not include me. I will also remember that in God's big plan of things we all go through seasons, including friendships.
I will ask for help when needed without shame or fear of rejection.
I will pray daily.
I will spend more time trying to memorize my own work.
I will forgive others who are not as "great" as I would like them to be so I can release anger, resentment, or bitterness and dislodge it from my spirit.
I will forgive myself for these things I have done poorly and I will DO BETTER.
God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought