ms Beautiful Thought: A blog

I want to scream from the highest mountain with the loudest microphone that you are important and special, beautiful and loved !!!! Silence the noise !!! It does not MATTER what they told you as a child as a teen as an adult silence the noise, the negative voices in your head. Replace those ghosts and demons with the words of God. Each of YOU has a special place, importance, role, assignment on this earth. You will find it and you will find joy once you believe what God has said about you. The same way you believed that you would amount to nothing cause they told you that, believe that God made you SOMETHING because He said THAT. Wake Up and Realize that in reality there is no invisible fence holding you back and keeping you from happiness. It is YOU! The people in your past are not holding you back...your past that you keep in your present is holding you in the past and those people have passed and already moved on. So get passed IT! Take on a new attitude and move on... What if ...

Interview Questions: What does poetry do for you? What does it mean to you?  What made you start poetry? Who are you now because of your life in poetry? Interview Answers: Poetry is the source of my creative outlet and stresses and joys and sadness and guilt and desires. Poetry is Me. It is parts of me that many don’t see or would never see. It is confession. It is wisdom. It is release. It is in the way I speak and think. God has used poetry to talk through me, to me, and for me to talk to myself. It has been a healing process for my heart at times and clearing of my mind at others. It has helped me to help others to heal and to see them in me. I began poetry as a pre-teen probably for a class writing assignment. I remember loving to read poetry when I would come across them in my mother’s book collection. I can remember reading poetry that was above me that I could not yet understand but yet I could feel. I was always at a high reading level for my age and so I read poet...

So I'm currently trying to determine if God wants me to Sit Down or Push Through. Sit/Push: My computer has died /But I then retrieved the data by converting the internal drive to a portable one. Push/Sit: Went to library to send blog I wrote to the organization I'm contracted with /But as of right now I am denied access to my files on other computers because my laptop had a password. Sit: Today I left therapy hurting because recently on top of my two bulging disks in my neck & carpal tunnel syndrome, last week I was additionally diagnosed with bursitis and tedonisis in my rotator cuff in one tendon and mildly in 2 others. Push: Next I started working on my wedding poem and started to leave to go to an open mic. Sit: The cafe venue for the open mic was closed due to rain issues. I went home to find I won 2 one-yr subscriptions to Cranbrook Music Guild, the first show is not til Oct. However, I also received a cd of the Oct performer---- over 60 min of Bach Goldberg i...

As I lie here half sitting, typing, and thinking, my mind reflects on what is important in life which is those who you care about and care about you. I have been forced recently, with my hands behind my back, to face and deal with concepts of death and dying. I met a middle-aged woman at work whose mother had passed away two weeks prior. She would cry off and on having buried her only a week ago; it was still a fresh wound. I had almost tried to turn her away because she was not in our zip code catchment area. However, by default I had to service her anyway. Now I was in a funky mood to start with but once she began to unravel and uncover her layers to me through her tears I shed those feelings. I began to no longer focus on myself, and my positive energies shifted toward encouraging her and lifting her spirits. I joked with the woman about her mother’s ways which had similarities to Madea. The woman told me it was the first time she had laughed in two weeks. Wh...