ms Beautiful Thought: A blog

I want to be better... I have some things I want to give up or change and my spirit says the time is now.  TODAY I am starting a twelve step program called www.theorangerhino.com  I will take it 30 days at a time and celebrate my "better" even  if I fall off. I will allow my child and even you to hold me accountable. I want to "check out" because I have checked out too many times. I want to unplug technology and spend more time with the natural, most importantly God & my child. I will manage my time more effectively. So I again declare that weekdays from 3-9 pm are family time with only rare distractions. My hands have been busy to many times when they should have been free.... to teach, to comfort, to hug, to not be distracted, to pray, to love. I will slowly begin to call people more...something I honestly avoid quite a bit for some reason. I will quit wondering what people thing and just find out for myself. I will not take it personally when friends do no...

Sitting in my new comfy pjs, heat pack on my back with only the light from my fireplace and colorful icicle lights I reflect on time spent with family today. I Surrender by Anthony Evans is what I hear fill the room... No resolutions, I try to do what I say. This here is a spiritual enhancement. I will without apology or fear do what God purposes in my spirit for me to say. I will not let money, power, position deter me or cause me to doubt again. I doubted on New Years eve that I should speak the words as were placed in my heart but I went fort and the response ended up being more then I expected. It just reconfirmed what I already knew. God has given me a voice and He continues to give me platforms...I will be obedient in that always. This has probably been the hardest year of my life but yet I feel so blessed. Friends are taking a different role in my life as I move closer to God He continues to reveal how I can only rely on Him. I pray you All learn that my friends...you will fin...