Sunday, January 5, 2014

I Want To Be Better

I want to be better... I have some things I want to give up or change and my spirit says the time is now. 


I am starting a twelve step program called I will take it 30 days at a time and celebrate my "better" even if I fall off. I will allow my child and even you to hold me accountable.

I want to "check out" because I have checked out too many times. I want to unplug technology and spend more time with the natural, most importantly God & my child. I will manage my time more effectively. So I again declare that weekdays from 3-9 pm are family time with only rare distractions. My hands have been busy to many times when they should have been teach, to comfort, to hug, to not be distracted, to pray, to love.

I will slowly begin to call people more...something I honestly avoid quite a bit for some reason. I will quit wondering what people thing and just find out for myself. I will not take it personally when friends do not connect with me. I believe God has a plan and if that means people I am comfortable with are not part of the long run then I must be O.k. with it, as much as it might hurt. Since I do not drive this season requires friends, or those who want to be, make an extra effort to see me. I must realize that everyone has their own priorities which may or may not include me. I will also remember that in God's big plan of things we all go through seasons, including friendships.

I will ask for help when needed without shame or fear of rejection.

I will pray daily.

I will spend more time trying to memorize my own work.

I will forgive others who are not as "great" as I would like them to be so I can release anger, resentment, or bitterness and dislodge it from my spirit.

I will forgive myself for these things I have done poorly and I will DO BETTER.

God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought

Thursday, January 2, 2014

My Non Resolution: 2014

Sitting in my new comfy pjs, heat pack on my back with only the light from my fireplace and colorful icicle lights I reflect on time spent with family today. I Surrender by Anthony Evans is what I hear fill the room... No resolutions, I try to do what I say. This here is a spiritual enhancement.

I will without apology or fear do what God purposes in my spirit for me to say. I will not let money, power, position deter me or cause me to doubt again. I doubted on New Years eve that I should speak the words as were placed in my heart but I went fort and the response ended up being more then I expected. It just reconfirmed what I already knew. God has given me a voice and He continues to give me platforms...I will be obedient in that always.

This has probably been the hardest year of my life but yet I feel so blessed. Friends are taking a different role in my life as I move closer to God He continues to reveal how I can only rely on Him. I pray you All learn that my will find it more difficult for your feelings to be hurt. Yes the five closest people in your circle do say a lot about you. Sometimes though you need to stop trying to reach out to people who don't want to be reached and reach towards those you may have neglected in the process. That could even include folks from your own family. Trust that God knows who should be there for a reason, season, and lifetime. I will.

I see God all around me right now...I resolve to keep it that way. With uncertainty for even tomorrow I vow to trust Him. This is my non resolution for 2014 & beyond. Be Encouraged. God's love and peace to you. ~ Beautiful Thought