ms Beautiful Thought: A blog

Today while at the grocery store in my electric cart I "forgot" my pain from the car accident that had just happened yesterday. I met a woman. I told her that I loved her style....her shaved head with just a low natural cut, beautiful earrings, bright white tennis shoes, and sweat pants pushed up to her knees. She had a glow about her. I know that feeling to be caught with not your best on but yet you get compliments, it's a good feeling. For the next fifteen minutes...I forgot my pain and that someone was waiting on me to drive me around...she immediately shared with me a story of how she was a breast cancer survivor and that she had lost one breast and then just recently her second breast was cut off, so now both. She was glad to be alive.   https://soundcloud.com/beautifulthought/breast-cancer-tribute-i-shall I told her about an amazing woman I know named  Yahminah McIntosh  who is the most inspiring, strong, courageous woman I know. I shared with this stranger some ...

Interview Questions: What does poetry do for you? What does it mean to you?  What made you start poetry? Who are you now because of your life in poetry? Interview Answers: Poetry is the source of my creative outlet and stresses and joys and sadness and guilt and desires. Poetry is Me. It is parts of me that many don’t see or would never see. It is confession. It is wisdom. It is release. It is in the way I speak and think. God has used poetry to talk through me, to me, and for me to talk to myself. It has been a healing process for my heart at times and clearing of my mind at others. It has helped me to help others to heal and to see them in me. I began poetry as a pre-teen probably for a class writing assignment. I remember loving to read poetry when I would come across them in my mother’s book collection. I can remember reading poetry that was above me that I could not yet understand but yet I could feel. I was always at a high reading level for my age and so I read poet...

I have been shaken, beaten, and now pressed ... and I am not talking about a martini or an olive. ME! I have not been wanting to sleep as much and as I know Stephen Sparrow and Yahminah McIntosh can attest > God is working on my spirit. I have so much I need to Say and Do.... I feel like the life I had before is gone. Even though I believe some of it is simply on hold, I will not return the same. While I was working full-time I was so distracted and tired by the end of today. IT was blocking God's plans for me, my life, and my ministry. I am thankful that God can take an injury and use the "need" for pain to His glory. I am listening to Los Santonio's music > http://lossantonio.wix.com/los-blue/home#!__home/santonio-music < and feeling the powerful spirit of his anointing. It's almost 4 am and I have no need for sleep right now. I promise....if it is the Lord's will....I will be releasing a cd this year and a chap book. It's time! I am ready...

I'm having one of those days....but I will not let my negativity spill onto others like I at times so easily absorb others. I am learning to remove myself from people who taint my spirit; but the problem is you are not always given enough warning that it is coming. Now it's easy for You to say don't let others upset you but how easy is it for You to Do?? Today is one of those days...sometimes the pressures of the world compounded by one or two nasty remarks with attitude is all it takes to stomp you down lower then normal. So I have learned to just take time resetting my spirit in order to change the color of it. People often think experiences are one isolated situation after another...in reality they layer and are interconnected. I pray God can heal and peel your layers and mine so the ugly ones get removed. I want scars that heal to reveal new skin...not keloids. I thank God for wisdom but I also want Him to continue finishing the work in me He started so I can be free...

Myself, Beautiful Thought, am pictured with the bride after performing a poetry collaboration with Stephen Sparrow, for her wedding ceremony. I matched perfectly though I did not know prior what the wedding colors were. The groom, Byron, connected with me on Facebook after seeing me perform my 1st poetry feature at Artist Village in 2010 (His quote- "I truly enjoyed your inspiring...thought provoking... powerful words last night...may God keep using you as one of His sharpest tools. ~B. Smooth). Byron has been following my poetic growth since Fall 2010; who knew he would ask me to perform at his wedding one day. I was looking for a muse to pen my wedding day poetry but I never "found" any exactly. All the words I said were a combination of words I wrote at different points in my growth over the last two years. No one knew, not even Sparrow at first, that it was not a brand new piece. I realize now that I Am Love and what is symbolic is that all the inspiration I ...

I have been out of work since April of this year, and up until a couple days ago, my income ended with the last several hrs of vacation pay the end of April. It was discovered in June that I had a few hrs of vacation pay left and also some coworkers donated some hrs of their vacation to me. I just received it July 5. This is not a cry, this is not for sympathy, this is my testimony. God has not seen me begging or without food. As a Dept of Human Services worker I am now on the other side of the bullet-proof glass. Even my status as a worker could not speed up the process of approving my food benefits. I had to go through and wait...persevere and increase my faith until God allowed relief. All the while strengthening my resolve to be a powerful and living witness. My rent was paid this month because the money came Right on time, the very same day it would have been considered late.  But God!!!  That is to say my particular situation is "such and such", But God made a w...

So I'm currently trying to determine if God wants me to Sit Down or Push Through. Sit/Push: My computer has died /But I then retrieved the data by converting the internal drive to a portable one. Push/Sit: Went to library to send blog I wrote to the organization I'm contracted with /But as of right now I am denied access to my files on other computers because my laptop had a password. Sit: Today I left therapy hurting because recently on top of my two bulging disks in my neck & carpal tunnel syndrome, last week I was additionally diagnosed with bursitis and tedonisis in my rotator cuff in one tendon and mildly in 2 others. Push: Next I started working on my wedding poem and started to leave to go to an open mic. Sit: The cafe venue for the open mic was closed due to rain issues. I went home to find I won 2 one-yr subscriptions to Cranbrook Music Guild, the first show is not til Oct. However, I also received a cd of the Oct performer---- over 60 min of Bach Goldberg i...

My child played last night until light became dusk... Today, he is reading and logging the time spent. Interesting fact: us women as single parents that want to prepare our children to excel above mediocre have to be strong disciplinarians and require some things our kids resent. They resent it especially when they go to other homes and it is not done there and all they do is watch "stuff" on tv and play. My son is not trippin' currently and this quiet time with the tv off is going to teach him there is a time for everything, how to focus, and how to relax. All these are life lessons necessary for truly healthy development . Once they stop to focus and also begin to get used to the fact that summer is not just for playing, they will begin to realize they are actually enjoy learning. For us single parents we will likely not see our greatest reward until many years from now because kids are kids and tend to rebel somewhat when they are made to "work". When ...