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I proclaimed that I was going to Live and be Authentic . So here goes that. I never , I say never , imagined there would come a time I would lie in bed in so much pain that I couldn't sleep. I had to sit up, but yet and still all I can do now is breath heavy and cry as tears come down my face. I pray God takes some of this from me. I can never judge another because who am I to judge. I been through and am going through too much. Lord please bless every person waking during the night to darkness and complete silence except their heavy breathing and tears falling. Bless every person in pain of any kind. WoW!!! It just just hit me how could Jesus have felt on the cross!?? I got some relief by sitting up, but He couldn't move. He was in so much pain He cried out, "My God, My God why has thou forsaken me?" I feel That pain, but yet I know God has Not left and every situation could be much worse. For that I will still praise Him through it. I pray now that the devil wil...

I'm thankful for this inspiration - it's one to grow on...  Has anyone ever told you that lack of forgiveness can be crippling? But yet they failed to add that not forgiving yourself also can have the same effect. If others and even God can forgive you why can't you forgive yourself? To be able to forgive yourself you must understand the concept of agape love and how God is willing to forgive us. W e must ask for it....but have you ever had a talk with you and asked yourself the same? "Self" please forgive me for not treating you right, letting others hurt you, damaging your reputation, not maintaining integrity, settling for less then you are worth, not meeting up to your level of capability, making the same mistakes, letting loved ones down, taking so long to break old habits...etc. Tell your self that you are sorry. Isn't it time to GROW and be whole again> set yourself free....only YOU hold the key. To thine own self be true...maintain your principles, ...

Listen to our RE-BLOGCAST Tonight at 9:30 pm EST Addiction vs Bad Habit: Do you deny yourself enough? 10/16 by ThePeacefulPoeticPlace RADIO | Self Help Podcasts  God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought

"Very Early in the morning while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. Simon and..." To read the rest go the link of the original post. It is sooo deep and it's NOT what you think! CLICK >>  Cultiv8Create: daily bread:mangled ministry : God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought

The Peaceful Poetic Place Online Radio | BlogTalkRadio Listen in this Sunday 9/15 @ 9:30 pm Topic of the hour is the topic of the month: Suicide Prevention. The recorded call will be available at that link after it is over. God's love & peace to you ~Beautiful Thought www.mybeautifulthoughts.com

In honor of September being Suicide Awareness Prevention month, I have reposted My Testimony which is a poetic take of my survival story. I will be hosting a blog talk which I will recite it, listen to other poetry & stories, and share information. Sunday - 9:30 pm. Click this link now to set up your reminder to tune in and/or call in :  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thepeacefulpoeticplace (The show will be recorded and archived so it will also be available to listen later.) MY TESTIMONY *Excerpts of my life from 1992 and 1995. I was asked to submit my testimony for a book about women who God has helped them overcome greatly. I simply told others to do it because I felt I had no powerful testimony...I now realize through this poem that my LIFE is a testimony.* Thank you for not killing me... When I myself wanted to die, anyway Well maybe not, pass from this life But become dead to the pain I felt When you both told me we, our relationship was dead, over See two...

Those of you whom have been hurt a lot or deeply and have not yet fully healed be careful....If you develop a mechanism of defense from being hurt called survival your actions can be destructive and detrimental to your relationships. Once you become so consumed with survival it changes the way you love and give. It turns your mindset into one of what can I get from others...and what do I need to s urvive....it becomes a self-centered type of mindset. You may even be a caring person and loving person the best you know how. It develops an alter ego or an unbalanced mind.  You want to be free and give and love freely BUT you are so used to being hurt and can't let go of thoughts of being hurt that you in turn sabotage relationships without even knowing. You can never give 100% because unconsciously your self-preservation mode does not allow you to....you must first look out for yourself. So you might even give tangibly but emotionally and other ways you do not give fully. You are de...

It's the end of August and I am so encouraged!!!! I have a lot to say so read....or don't.... This weekend despite difficulties and having to press IT was so encouraging!!! I ministered at Soundsof Imani's Anointed Gospel Coffee House with Paul Dean and friends. He and Clarissa stuck by me to help me press and it feels like commitment and dedication and perseverance....it feels like....love. I AM Blessed! Sunday I had an awesome word as always from my pastor Mark Thompson and as a bonus saw a friend in Christ and in spirit JoVonna who is always full of positive energy. That evening I did a short impromptu piece at Darnell Kendricks' Smooth Soul Cafe Maccabees about the blessings & love of music & friends perfect for such a time as the soulful one he Always creates. Stay tuned for info about the next one Sept. 28 I plan to be on the mic even more. ;-) His event lifted my spirit through the love that permeates wherever HE IS and the spirits he attracts as ...

I remember when I used to work with the homeless. I had a coworker with quite a few children and her husband was often out of the home. He was an addict that would relapse from time to time but she still held it together. The strength of a woman…this dedicated mother would often get calls and even have to leave work because her daughter would have seizures. I remember her saying that her daughter would sleep in class afterwards. I remember thinking maybe smells or chemicals in the school were triggering this young girl to have these episodes. I realize now I labeled them “episodes” as I would think to myself. I’m not sure why, that was just the language that formed…I call mine spells. That is simply because I knew something was coming over me at times. I just wasn't sure exactly what it was, but I soon realized it was more then staring spells, being tired, or simple headaches. It was different. I never imagined I would one day be familiar with what seemed so uncommon. It’s o...

Today was "a day"... I can't describe it any other way... until I just describe it. Some things may seem random but believe me they are interconnected. Never be so set in your plans, that YOU made for the day that you forget to let God have His way each of those days. Follow me... I went to the WOW Jam in Detroit and ran into my god-daughter and her mother and friends. I was so pleased to see them, considering since my son was born I have not spent much time with my god-daughter, though I would take her in a heartbeat if need be. I also have not talked to her mother, who is like my little sister, since her younger sister passed away in March. That event ws something that brought us all closer together especialy during that period of time. I was able to be there for them and their family during a very hard time. (Spoken word piece dedicated to fallen soldier Britney Meux http://soundcloud.com/beautifulthought/savannahs-song-natasha-anee  ) However, this bl...

I want to scream from the highest mountain with the loudest microphone that you are important and special, beautiful and loved !!!! Silence the noise !!! It does not MATTER what they told you as a child as a teen as an adult silence the noise, the negative voices in your head. Replace those ghosts and demons with the words of God. Each of YOU has a special place, importance, role, assignment on this earth. You will find it and you will find joy once you believe what God has said about you. The same way you believed that you would amount to nothing cause they told you that, believe that God made you SOMETHING because He said THAT. Wake Up and Realize that in reality there is no invisible fence holding you back and keeping you from happiness. It is YOU! The people in your past are not holding you back...your past that you keep in your present is holding you in the past and those people have passed and already moved on. So get passed IT! Take on a new attitude and move on... What if ...

The day after lots of love is shown....and children grieved over dead relationships and deceased mothers; when many men found it most convenient to ask you out "in celebration of the day"; when your offspring where still disrespectful and often take for granted your sacrifices; when the often absent male parent barely said Hi let alone praised you for your hard work and dedication....on the day after Mother's Day know your mother loved how she knew and could, your children call you blessed and know you do your best, men finally got brave enough to show you their admiration, and many fathers know they messed up so being quiet goes best with pride. You are a queen a warrior a nurturer a lady with the job of carrying the world in her belly and on her shoulders...at the same time, no time for hearts on a sleeve, you have tears to wipe and mouths to feed, more babies to birth and generations to lead. You have little time for crying because there is homework to read. You are pe...

Below is something I wrote less then two weeks ago....encouraging me by encouraging others. I decided not to post it on FB. Instead, simply saved it and later read it again realizing I had encouraged me by my own words. Who would have known that I would "live this" prophecy sooner then I thought... hitting me harder because I was unprepared to expect it so soon. Now these words I must eat, digest, and BELIEVE like never before (though yet again) that God has me in the palm of His hands. I must believe because of hope....it's all I (we) have. "I sit here feeling less capable then I have ever felt, because of certain handicaps I'm dealing with currently. I know God is moving things to line up for my favor but then it really really hit me....I have been requested to write & perform for a Midwest gospel hiphop event for hundreds of people and to do a twice monthly event locally for a National food chain, if the Lord's will it will go forth as planned. God sa...

Valentine's dinner menu was planned some time ago...lobster, shrimp, broccoli, garlic toast and brownies & ice cream to eat at our new table. I wanted to do something special for him. God planned ahead knowing this would be also a time for healing and renewal. So....we set up dinner and got dressed for our date. He could not understand why we were dressing up but took great pride in picking out his own outfit. Collectively we looked for a lighter, deciding to add candles...when he got full he played his violin for me in his suit while I finished his plate. Afterwards, he decided he would take my hand so we could swing arms & sing Happy Valentines Day to us (who does that lol), that turned into two dances. We danced last to India Arie "Ready for Love". He enjoying the time cracking up at our twists, turns, & bends unaware God was preparing him...for life for love for wife. We ate desert in front of the fireplace, and as our love was rekindled we watched the ...